“It’s not how much we give but how much love we put into giving.” – Mother Teresa
I love to Blog, it has become my journalling over the past few years. It helps me to sort out the messages and sometimes the contradictions that occur between my two ears. I am harder on myself than I am on any other person in this world and vice versa. I am always challenging my motives with the intention to stay true to my heart, purpose and mission. I am by nature a giver but when the pressure builds I start seeking out the gifts!
Fortunately, I always catch myself and quickly hit my knees (not with my hands either), I pray and ask to be free of the bondage of self and self centeredness. I believe that God has a better plan for me then I comprehend today. Saying that, I do allow the internal contradictions to build into negative thoughts. After I “clear” or “snap” out of it, I find that writing out the solution always helps!
Yesterday I met with a fellow that needed help, I have not seen him in well over 15 years. Quite frankly, he looked terrible, besides being 15 years older he was battered. The last time I saw him was not on good terms, he was on a crack run and would not leave my friends home that I helped him secure. He was going “Pacific Heights” on my friend. Who by the way helped me this time as well!
During the process he still had an attitude of entitlement and had zero problem asking for more than I could give. I must say over the two plus days it took to find him help and transport him to the helpers I had some negativity percolating. I remained polite and myself but it was right under the skin. Prayer and the fact that my friend was with me helped. Yet, when I laid down last night I reminded God that I was giving…
So I write today with a smile on my face and a tear in my eye once again laughing at myself as I read the Mother Teresa quote this morning… 🙂 Life is good!
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